believing in yourself
today, was routine, to an extent, nothing new. went to church, helped out with the kids again. and after church had leadership meeting. went all the way to MUSTAFA by myself, to get myself a pair of black shoes. I LOST THE PAIR I BOUGHT JUST FOR COMMENDATION. WHAT THE HELL! so yeah, went all the way there cause i heard from cheney that mustafa has cheap formal shoes. wasnt really disappointed, but yeah, im surprised i even dared to go in.
the afternoon was wiled away watching kung fu panda online and playing dota. nothing much to say there. kung fu panda, totally retarded, as usual, it has a moral to learn. like every other pixar animation since, toys story? this ones about BELIEVING IN YOURSELF, and at the same time working as a team. haha so council-ish. "what are some debrief pointers?", familiar?
well, wanted to go out for dinner, but apparently SOMEONE, isnt free. RAHHH! eating ben and jerrys without me somemore. whats this man! got good things must share right.
at least, today wasnt so emo. but as i type this, i begin to reflect and realise how lonely i feel. as much as i can live by myself, and totally be the funny person you all know me to be. somewhere, deep inside, i have a yearning. to be recognised, to be cherished, to be loved. by who, thats another story. but, i just want it, want it so badly, but i know i cant have it. maybe i can, but i wont allow myself to? ah well, i just hope that things continue to look brighter. really looking forward to school now! weekends feel super lonely, maybe aside from church. school days have all the nice people to talk to! jan, ally, yuqi, huiying, amanda and boonling, oh oh and my paes12, and jaes14 HAHA. going to school would SUCK without you people la. i just hope things stay the same, and that i can get what i want too! selfish little me.
the afternoon was wiled away watching kung fu panda online and playing dota. nothing much to say there. kung fu panda, totally retarded, as usual, it has a moral to learn. like every other pixar animation since, toys story? this ones about BELIEVING IN YOURSELF, and at the same time working as a team. haha so council-ish. "what are some debrief pointers?", familiar?
well, wanted to go out for dinner, but apparently SOMEONE, isnt free. RAHHH! eating ben and jerrys without me somemore. whats this man! got good things must share right.
at least, today wasnt so emo. but as i type this, i begin to reflect and realise how lonely i feel. as much as i can live by myself, and totally be the funny person you all know me to be. somewhere, deep inside, i have a yearning. to be recognised, to be cherished, to be loved. by who, thats another story. but, i just want it, want it so badly, but i know i cant have it. maybe i can, but i wont allow myself to? ah well, i just hope that things continue to look brighter. really looking forward to school now! weekends feel super lonely, maybe aside from church. school days have all the nice people to talk to! jan, ally, yuqi, huiying, amanda and boonling, oh oh and my paes12, and jaes14 HAHA. going to school would SUCK without you people la. i just hope things stay the same, and that i can get what i want too! selfish little me.
the people i have come to love. surprising cause it took so little to do so(: oh and there are more that arent in the picture. this was at united square BEN AND JERRYS.
just give me a little, thats all i ask
black&white ; 7:35 PM